To tell you guys the truth. being an artist for 12 years was a fun experience, but nothing over those years. I haven't even accomplished anything. If so, where or how have I succeeded in this and the previous years? In fact, I didn't want to draw other artist's OCs because they'd think of me as a freak. To let this off my chest, here's the dark truth about me. All this year, I was this close to committing self-suicide with having no one knowing but never attempting to do so and to prove my theory that if my existence never existed, everybody would be happy without me. No matter how many times I tried to be friendly as hard as I could, it ended up in the hole when they saw me. I give up easily, all my scrapped work goes to the trash, and my mental health is at risk of reaching the line. Either way, I shouldn't be having this much plague in my thoughts and body. I should start living a little and be happy with how many skills I've gained and have my followers to support and love me no matter what. I want to apologize for my way of hiding my depression from everybody just to see if I'm fine so nobody can worry about me. I wish I could be better at something to see that I'm not so different from what I am now. Hope you guys can understand how I feel right now and I want to thank you to everybody who's been here from the beginning. I can't make a promise for a change but let's hope for luck for a better year.
If this makes you feel uncomfortable and won't like me for what I am, It's okay to leave me and find a better artist than I am. I'll understand
